im writing this because i just remembered today when i was waiting on the train…thinking about God and such….i don’t remember if i was 10 years old or up to 13…doesn’t matter it was a young age….i remember there was a time i had a thought which was unbelievable for even a kid to think about it….it was sorta like believing in God….

I was thinking, maybe this world around me is either written in a story that i am living through, or i am really in a dream. This person that is either writing the story or dreaming is actually MYSELF…I am just an image of what myself is really thinking/dreaming/writing. In a sense i guess i can say that i thought of myself…the true self that has this power to control over me…was GOD…not God that religious people are talking about, but God as in myself of my own world. it is crazy…for a young age to think that way…i never said it to anyone because well if i did, people would think im psychotic, but it was a thought and i knew what was reality and what’s not.

another thing that i remembered around the same age; was something scary, but at the same time it wasn’t.
i remembered it clearly what i was doing at the time…i was laying down on my stomach on the living room floor watching tv…suddenly my mind blanks out and all i saw was pitch black and saw my dead great grandparents….i spoke to them about how things were with them and if they are ok…i don’t remember the conversation i had with them, but it felt so real…i was scared because the fact that i thought i was dead…but i wasn’t scared because i was with my great grandparents…

now remember this was when i was like 10 years old…and i remember after i said bye to them…they faded away and all i saw was pitch black…as soon as they disappeared, my mind snapped back into reality and didn’t know what i was watching on tv…
i never told anyone this…and still haven’t but since you are reading this…i just told some people lol

leave a comment on what you think happened to me during that blackout